But those who know me realize I am stubborn and so I have continued to search for other outlets. Recently, I decided to take vocal lessons. I had written a song that seemed to get fairly decent response from those who heard it, but it didn’t take a very critical listener to realize that my voice was untrained. I assumed it was due to lack of practice since there was a time when I had some vocal training.
I signed up for lessons but after the first couple of sessions I realized that my voice was not getting any better, and was perhaps getting worse. Then I looked at a video of me making a speech to the San Diego City Council 6 years ago, and I realized that my voice had been much richer then.
I did some more reading and research about the voice and realized that my vocal chords were nothing more than muscles, and unfortunately, that’s what my disease feeds upon. What has been happening is my vocal cords have been becoming weaker year-by-year. This gives a certain raspiness to my voice making singing difficult for me and unpleasant for listeners. Worse yet, with this disease if you try to strengthen the muscle that the disease is already weakening, it makes the disease process accelerate. In the 2 weeks of vocal exercises, I had actually damaged my voice more.
Now what? Well, if I’m going to the be sticking around on this planet for a while longer, I need something creative to do. I had tried to learn objective C programming so that I could write apps for the iPhone, but I found that my lack of working fingers made the learning process just way too slow and I gave that up. I am currently working on my memoirs, using voice recognition technology, and that is an interesting thing to do and keeps me occupied for a couple of hours a day, but I need more than that.
I’ve always enjoyed making music, although not having the ability to strike several keys of a keyboard at the same time made it tedious and boring. Then an acquaintance told me he was creating complex musical arrangements using a program called Sibelius. This intrigued me, as it meant I could develop a multi-part composition one note at a time. So that is my latest venture and I must say it is a lot of fun even though once again I have gotten into a brand-new area that has a very steep learning curve.
One interesting new tool I have just discovered is the KORG nanoKey2 keyboard. Most electronic keyboards are built to resemble a standard piano keyboard and as a result the notes are very difficult for me to press. This one has the same layout but the keys are much shallower and require less effort to press. If you are interested, Amazon sells it:
Should anything worth sharing come of my attempts I will post it here. As a start, I am trying to do a remix of my song, “I Won’t Stand for That!”